I just got back from a conference with some colleagues.

It was four hours to the confrernce and four hours back.  Two meals out, etc.  This trip made me realize what a misfit I am.

I was in the car with five other women.  I knew most of these women, and we all get along well.  We'd talk about a variety of topics ranging from movies to husbands to kids, etc.  I felt like I had pertinent things to add to the conversation, but I felt like I was talked over and that no one really listened or cared.  I felt like I asked lots of questions of the other ladies, too.  I don't know...I've never felt that out of place before.

We got back here in town, and I had to drop one of the other ladies off before I drove to my house.  After I dropped the other woman off, I started back to my own house.  One of the other teachers started giving me directions.  To my own house.  I had to tell her I thought I could find my own way home.  For the last ten minutes of the trip I didn't say anything other than "thank you" and "goodbye."

I had fun.  And I learned alot.  But I think I've found that I should just shut up because I'm really not funny, first of all, and I have no life experiences to share, second, because I'm not a drinker and the only person I've ever had sex with is my husband, and that was after we were married.

I think I need to be content being the wallflower, because that's where I belong.